New Year (2010)

I got to thinking, (which for me can be very dangerous) what has this year in West Virginia taught me? This is requiring more thought than I am used to, I originally thought that this would be an easy excerise but almost immediatly had to rethink that.

Why did I come to Wil's home in West Virginia? Two reasons, 1) I had lost my job and had no where else to go. 2) A friend of some 12 years had given me an open invitation to come and learn a trade, namely currency trading. A no strings invitation, how often does one get those in the course of ones life, it is rare indeed. So what on the surface appears to be a self serving move on my part turned into a symbiotic relationship. Wil had lived alone on the Mountain for 10 - 11 years, with a daily trip to his dads house up the mountain. I quickly realised that I was doing something for him, keeping him company. Living in a cave (alone) is no easy experience and I discovered my value to him. I also found out that being a friend is not a short term thing, it is not being an aquaintance, it is not about daily chats, it is not about living entwined in someone elses life, it is about consistancy. I spoke to Wil twice a year and found out from him how much our conversations had meant over the years. I had no idea! I do however think that I am coming off better out of this whole year. I have learned a business that can and will sustain me and mine, I have been given an opportunity that I would not have had otherwise, and have discovered what true friendship is. Thats a pretty good deal. LOL

I found myself looking at the friends that I have and thinking negatively about them. This was a very "wo is me" thought proccess, wrongfully so. In my mind I was knocking people for not writing to me, out of sight out of mind. Perhaps they had their lives to live, mouths to feed, jobs to do etc. Some of those people I had not written to them for some time, so my thought proccess was warped to say the least. I am not trying to make appologies for my friends but trying to understand their thought proccess. I was the focal point of several groups as a High Priest or facilitator and it is no longer the case, I am not that focal point anymore, other folks have taken on that role and from what I understand are doing a good job. It is a strange feeling to not have that in your life, to be out of the loop. So I have decided to continue to update my friends on what is going on in my life and if they choose to respond that would be a plus. I am also interested in how active these friends will be when I have money (which I will) only time will tell. I think that some of them will be in for a shock. LOL

I also learned a lot about myself, who is Jim? I am going to intergrate those things into my life and do not see a down side to doing that. I am going to be very interested in how I am perceived with my new outlook and more positive actions. Time Will Tell.