West Virginia

10 Months today that I have been living in West Virginia. What started as a two week "seminar" on currency trading has turned into an odysey, an odysey of learning and introspection.

The lessons and the learning have been interesting, the currency trading was the easy part (although 10 months later I am still learning). The hardest part of this journey thus far has been learning about myself, learning about the things that I do to myself, things that I do to others and things that I allow people to do to me, this is for the most part not physical but mental. This is a journey into my soul, into my eyes. "Look into the eyes of the Dragon and dispair" is the example that a teacher of mine used, the Dragon being the inner you, the inner you that you can not lie to. What I saw was not good, not horrible but not good. West Virginia and my good friend Wil have given me the ideal location and atmosphere to do the inner work that I needed to do, living half way up a mountain in the woods with no one around is about as close to ideal as you can get. (lonely, but ideal)
I have found that my life has been a series of little steps (in terms of development), a series of conscience decisions over many, many years. Being an abused child, and the conscience decision to not hit my children, being insecure and horribly shy, and the conscience decision to work in a public environment (although in retrospect a pub was probaly not the best place,) being afraid of heights, and the conscience decision to take up mountain climbing. And now I find myself at another moment in my life when I must make conscience decisions that will impact me and those around me and I believe that I am in a place that I can and will make those decisions, small or large, easy or hard they will be made. When in doubt, look into a mirror and the truth will be TOLD and at some point the truth will be UNDERSTOOD and then the fun stuff starts. With that understanding, the crutches (excuses) fall away and you are left to be responsible for yourself, not what anyone else did or taught, just you and you will be amazed at the inner power we all have, that divine spark that will conquer all.

West Virginia is one of the most Beautiful states that I have visited, and has done it's part in my evolution. Back to nature and all your questions will be answered and of course a mirror.